So, this happened this week… I’ve started a new regime of trying to become a little more spiritually aware, as I feel it’ll help me become a less shouty mum and a more centred, positive and happier human being. So, not one to make life easy for myself I’m on with three challenges at the moment:
- Learn to meditate
- Practise yoga
- Read, digest and follow the principles in the book The Desire Map
OK, not had the best start this week… I started on Monday with the 30 days meditation challenge on Youtube. I found 10 minutes to do this after dropping the kids off at school. Got it all set up on the TV and as ‘we’ were about to start the guy down the road started mowing his lawn and my phone ‘pinged’ a message. So I got out of my lotus pose (or should I say trying to sit cross-legged comfortably…) and switched my phone to silent and shut the window. Then I managed to do the 1st and 2nd day challenge! It took a little while to get used to JBittersweets voice and knock out all the things I really should be doing instead out of my mind, but I did it! Unfortunately, I’ve not managed to do day 3 yet, and its Sunday evening… FAIL! Still will try again tomorrow!
Next was the yoga. I aimed to do an energising morning sequence with Adriene every morning. I amazingly managed to fit in the first session on Monday morning before the school run! Crazy, I know, but both kids were dressed, homework done, washed and ready to go by 8am! Talk about dedication to the cause! So they happily watched TV while I yoga’d. Job done… Tuesday, however, didn’t happen, but Wednesday did, in a fashion. My youngest decided to do it with me and happily put herself into funny poses whilst I tried to focus on my breath. After about 5 minutes my threenager, started huffing ‘I can’t do it!’ very loudly. I attempted to encourage her to keep trying at which point she threw a hissy-fit and started kicking the door. I carried on regardless, trying to block out her tantrum, breathing and chanting ‘don’t shout, just ignore..’ FAIL! I couldn’t take it, paused the tv, took her quietly by the arm and led her to the bedroom, left her there, came back to the living room and pressed play. I then proceeded to complete the yoga session with my darling daughters cries in the background ‘mummy I neeeed to do yogaaaaaa, mummy I neeeed to do yogaaaaaaa…
The next day I managed to do the yoga session was today, this morning to be exact. BUT, not without interruptions. Hubby and son were out swimming. I had a good chat with my darling daughter about how I needed 20 minutes to do some relaxing exercises that’ll make me a less shouty mum, and stuck the TV on for her in the other room. The dog was enjoying the garden and it was a perfect time to get down to business. 10 minutes into the session (yes, a pattern seems to be emerging..) it absolutely chucked it down with rain and I suddenly realised the dog was outside. So, paused the session, went to let the dog in, she looked a bit like this:
I wiped her down and gave her a biscuit (she always expects one after a wipe down as a reward for, well, being wiped down). Got back and pressed play, and darling daughter then proceeded to tell me she was going to the loo for a ‘number 2’, excellent! Managed an extra 4 minutes of the session before ‘Mum, I’ve finished!’ was chanted over and over again, with snippets of ‘Twinkle, twinkle little star, my dad’s got a rusty car’ in between. Pause TV, sort out daughter, back and press play.. DD then decides she wants to do it with me and does her best to get in the way. Then, when I ask her to move over she announces that ‘it’s not fair, I want to do it there!’ I finally manage to finish the routine, but am still battling the ‘shouty mum’ syndrome! I still need to find my inner peace…
Hence, The Desire Map..
This book is hopefully going to help me discover my ‘inner light’ and also help us towards effective planning, setting ‘goals with soul’ and feeling good… Yes a big ask, but its had great reviews! I’ve ordered the book and I’m hoping it’ll be here tomorrow, but have already read the first chapter as a free download from Danielle Laport’s website, and I love the way it is written and it leaves me hankering for more! I’ll keep you informed.
So, all in all my first week of enlightenment wasn’t brilliant, but not bad… We’ll see how this week goes!
I hope you have a wonderful week yourself, and find time for yourself.
Relax at your place